After the members of the class finished our first scenes, we came to class and were asked to lay down on the ground and simply have a fantasy. This fantasy was to be something that was either the best thing that could happen to us or the worst thing that could ever happen to us. To me, what seemed the hardest was that we were instructed to let the fantasy take control and let it go where it wants. When Russ told us to do this, I immediately started thinking about what I would consider the best thing that could happen to me. This felt like cheating to some degree because it was not the fantasy guiding itself. Thinking about it now, I don’t know who else is supposed to decide what the best thing that could happen to me is other than me. Anyway, I had it in my mind where I wanted the fantasy to end. The ultimate success fantasy in my mind is to either be in a musical with Brendon Urie, the lead singer of Panic! At The Disco, or to star in a musical that he wrote. I found starting the fantasy to be somewhat difficult because I wasn’t sure where to start. So I just started from where I was, I imagined that I was leaving my acting class. Surprisingly, I never made it to what the event that I mentioned before. I don’t remember exactly what happened other than it being good things happening. Yet I still never made it to being cast in this imaginary show. If I had spent more time, I imagine that I would have made it there.

After discussing our experiences as a class, we were then asked to imagine what would be the worst thing to happen to us. I was far more nervous about this fantasy. I think I was slightly apprehensive because I didn’t really want to think about what could be the worst thing that could happen to me. There was also not an immediate thought of what is the worst thing that could happen to me so I didn’t feel like I had a place for the fantasy to go. Once we laid down, I was just thinking about what could be the worst thing to happen to me, not a cohesive fantasy of it actually happening. This fantasy felt so much more difficult than the other did.